i NEED to do a back hand spring

Okay I am going crazy i don't know what's wrong with me I've been doing gymnastics for year and a half and i can't do a back handspring! I know i should be practicing instead of sitting on the computer telling random people about my problems! But whatever. Okay now i feel just pathetic! OOH OOH IDEA! I am going to walk away from the computer and do a back-walk-over............Bam Bam Bam three in a row! Now i think I'm ready! Should i take it to the trampoline?.........and break my neck?!?! NO i'm too scared. P.S. does this look like a very nice post? Bcuz i think i'm just being frantic! I'm not the kind of person to plan out a post on my blog. and have pretty little paragraphs. Back to my back hand spring, I'm gonna try again I be right back. WOW now i'm up to 4 in a row! I'm going crazy i feel like I'm tipsy or something. And trust e it's not a good feeling! (Oh wow i'm just reading over all this and i am realizing i have very bad grammer) I DON"T CARE!! HEHE but my mom does. OK well pathetically i think this so far is my longest but worst post! )Let's hope next time it's better( OH look i even did parenthesize wrong! :(